oh I'm sorry, was my back standing in the way of your knife?

no good deed goes unpunished. that is a fucking fact
that I didn't need to experience once more, for the
bloody trillion time.
it's not that I'm just fucking pissed, but am starting to
give a toss not.

when you really really try, you get shit. from those ones
that should not whatsoever do such thing.


so excuse me if I poured my heart out and you stabbed it.

always and forever the wrong people?

my dear diana I have no idea. perhaps it will go
on forever ( I get that feeling right now) perhaps

you'll get tired of everything and stop giving
a toss and do whatever's right for you, without

caring for anyone else. if they hurt, that's that...
why should you be unhappy just for the sake of

someone that in the end leaves?
here's something for your support:



Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared,
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile, (may your smile)
Shine on, (shine on)
Don't be scared, (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm,

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them someday,
Take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out

believe in nothing

when family get together it's always hard to shut up. there will
always be someone that will get on your nerves. I know I should
ignore them, I *know* I should not listen, I *know* I shouldn't care.

I know... but what if it doesn't feel right?! what do I do then?

I suppose telling you to fuck yourself wouldn't be professional...

that goes to almost all me university professors. up yours cunts!

"what" ain't no country I ever heard of

I'd like to believe that not quite everyone has a price.
I had the unpleasant chance to talk with one of me best friends. he amazed me when he said
"everyone has a price". I couldn't agree much so we started arguing. perhaps, we all have a price. it just
depends on how you like to live your life: fight for nothing and trying
to live on knowing that you did something rather wrong
just to achieve the one thing you desire most at that moment.
or realize that everything that you actually and truly want can
be achieved with hard work.

I say it depends on how much you respect yourself as a person,
as a human and spiritual presence. the short way does not mean
the better way.

abuse drugs

I hate these days. I can't breathe from the bloody pressure
on me chest... I try to let go but still it fucks with me head.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUCK SCHULDINER!

mie nu-mi plac caps-urile, insa postul asta cere!

azi, 13 mai, trebuia Chuck Schuldiner sa-si serbeze ziua de nastere. insa cum a
trecut in nefiinta... dar mie imi place sa-i serbez ziua, viata si munca. he is me hero!

forever in me heart you shall remain!