if you'd like to discuss this further, we can take it outside

sometimes you just can't change what's in the pas. it's

bloody frustrating, but the truth is that you can't. so,

when I can't do things that make me feel good and jelly

with myself, anger takes over me. you see now, there are

two such people that make me pulse grow. there is this

broad that thinks everything belongs to her. talk about

opinion, truth, orders etc etc. I never said a thing cause

she's friends with my guy but no more. fuck her!

and then there is my cousin's gf that laughed at my uncle

and grandma's funeral. she fuckin laughed. right next to me

my cousin never talks to me cause he is so so busy doing

nothing whatsoever. but guess what?! he actually called

me to ask if I have a book. I knew it was for that CUNT

but I asked "pt prietena (in gand: pizda aia) ta iti trebuie cartea?"

to make things straight, my cousin's father died and grandma. 30

hours one from each other.

so... the book is for her. he said he remembered that I study

geology. oh BOLLOCKS! I don't know who the fuck he asked,

anyways now I have to help that bloody cunt. and I have to be

nice to her. I don't think I'll be, though. in the end how could I?

I loved grandma and uncle and she (she even brought a friend

at the funeral) laughed to my face. my father ( my dad and uncle

were brothers). dammit! I could chop her head off! I'm so fucking

pissed!

I dig violence. it's self destructive...

bollocks bullshit bollocks

I never really got fake people. I mean, why? if you don't

like something or someone, you don't really have to tell

them, just ignore them. anything like so, just don't act

like you care just for the sake of you so called "good image"

chestia asta ma duce in trecut cand am iesit eu cu niste

oameni noi. presupusi *prieteni* de-ai mei. si deci am mers

intr-un bar. eram eu si inca doua fete printre multi baieti.

ele doua se cunosteau, really strong bff's! I knew one broad.

the other I didn't so let's call her X.

they were opposite the place I was sitting. they begun talking

and gossiping about Lord knows what. I told meself "girls do

that" till they looked at me and smiled and talked some more.

I can't say I was disturbed, oh no no. it's just that I thought I

am not going to try to have a convo with her (or the other gal)

just for the sake of my guy (as all those ppl were my guy's friends).

what pissed me is that at the end of the night, they all have this

habit of kissing on the cheeks. after X kissed my bf (yes yes

I did feel the urge to smack her in the face) she smiled at me

said oh "hai si pe tine". am vrut sa-i zic shove it really deep

inside where the sun don't ever shine. dar trebuia sa fiu

politicoasa. am stat acolo ca o statuie neimpresionata.

I don't know about you, but I see enough of fake people

all around the place. I don't really need such individuals

along my side.

I could love you but I rather fuck you

why bother sharing feelings with someone when it's

easier not to?!

I had this conversation with my dearest friend.

we shall call me friend, Friendy. so, Friendy and I talked

about relationships, good or bad ones. how some can simply

kill you or better yet, give you wings.

as we talked, we realized that its so so much easier to have

people you are friends with and people you do it with.

I just have to add that the easy way is not always the best way!

da, sunt pe p*la mea

that is the perfect state to be.

I've experienced lots of behaviors towards me or

other people lately. must I say that people are big

fuck ups? always asking for better, for more...

I don't know. best thing is not to fight it, just take

it as it comes. don't think about it, don't judge it,

just go with it. you don't have to accept or agree.



when there are no feelings, the world is at your feet!